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Friday, 03 June 2005

  • I'm sorry for the lack of attention that you received my little Xanga. I must admit that I am finding it more and more difficult to talk to you about how I really feel about things in my life.

    Anyway, I am back in Malaysia. Home is great. Friends care about me, unlike most of those I know in Singapore who only maintain a superficial relationship with me. Friends who grow up together with me through my early school days are still the best. I love all of you so much.

    There are so many things I want to do and so many people I wanna see and talk to. I am going back to my secondary school, my friend's school and pay a visit to my tuition teacher. There are many other people whom I wanna see and talk to but I am afraid I am unable to do so. Therefore all I can do is perhaps feel them in my memories and hope that they are living a good life.

    And then, as I always do when I reach home, I scan through my Windows Media Player and listen all those great songs that I have in my computer. They are the songs that I love the most and it feels like I haven't listen to them for eternity. Some songs are very nostalgic, especially those that I used to listen when I first venturing the unchartered territory of the musical world. Also, I enjoy listening to the voice of ceased singers. Their legacy is their angelic voice that soothes many's heart even though they are dead. Kinda meaningful to me.

    But I feel that I am not leaving anything behind. Maybe I am still young and I can't leave anything. But already I am forgetting my secondary school days. I know we should not dwell in the past, but I do not want time to erase my memory of the past. I enjoy reflecting back what I did when I was younger, laugh about all the silly things I did, and ask all the "what if" questions. But recently, I do not document my life at all and everything seems to be getting washed away by the flow of time. I don't even know what I have really done in the past year in Singapore. There will be no trace of my existence in Singapore if things keep on going like this.

    Therefore, I am going to take more photos of the events involving my and my friends in Singapore. Might not help, but I love photos. They tell a very long story and a thousand words. They are legacies.

Sunday, 17 April 2005

Thursday, 07 April 2005

  • Today, I will talk about something that you don't care: my exam result.

    General Paper - 62.5 (B3)
    Not a bad grade, but not exactly what I want. Requires improvement in the next test.

    Physics - 63 (B)
    I am among the top scorer for Physics, so I should be happy. But I am not. Will strife to do better next time.

    Further Maths - 68 (B)
    Again, not bad because I am among the top scorers. But B is not exactly a grade worth celebrating.

    Chemistry - 76 (A)
    Ought to be a joy, but fell short from my expectation. So, 76 is a disaster. Have to work harder and need more luck next time.

    Maths C - 91 (A)
    A joy finally. But could've done better by reducing careless mistakes.

    Basically, I am not particularly satisfied with my grades although it is only a common test and I am in fact doing well relative to others. But I must not live a life of ignoble ease and be lulled into a false sense of security. I will continue to toil and preach a doctrine of strenuous life to achieve the ultimate triumph at the end of the day.

    Yes I will!

    Noun of the day: Loneliness.

Sunday, 03 April 2005

  • time for an update for those who actually care. by "those who actually care" i think i am really referring to myself since nobody cares about me anymore because i suck in everyway imaginable.

    first of all, i have got two new china roommates who are sent into jurong jc because they failed their o-level english paper. they are wu hao and li nan. good thing both their names are double-syllables because i find memorising chinese names very intimidating. this wu hao dude is quite good looking and he is friendly, talks a lot and has a perfect computer for games (i have a potential blame target if i do badly for exam now <evil smile>). the other one is a damn tall basketball player who is never in the room and doesn't seem to be comfortable talking to me in english, so i don't expect to be really close to him. from them, i have also known a few other prc who come to our room all the time. my room now is almost always totally packed, which is not exactly something worth celebrating.

    enough of roommates. roommates are boring anyway, unless of course they are of opposite sex or if you are gay. talk about yesterday. people tell me to look forward and don't look back, but who the hell cares, so lets talk about what happened yesterday.

    yesterday is april fool. i was expecting plenty of chicanery and tricks from my friends, but surprisingly nobody ever tried to trick me or do something fun. being a nice guy and an exemplary student, of course, i didn't trick anyone to make anyone look stupid. i am that nice!

    but i am not talking about yesterday because it was april fool. i talk about it because plenty of interesting things happened.

    during the recess for example, this one guy approached me and asked me whether i am free on that night. you know what, i would've been surprised if not for his big group of friends who stared at us and trying to stop themselves from laughing. it was obviously a joke and i gave him the immediate refute: "try harder next time" and it all ended with his friends laughing, clapping and acknowledging his bravery, like it takes a lion's heart to go and ask some random guy whether he is free on that night. duh!

    soon after that, i met up with ailin (chess girl according to kian shen) in the library. actually i meet her pretty often lately before i go to school and during her and my free periods. but beginning next week, she will have a long time table to i must expect less time with her. she also said that she wants to start studying like mad although i seriously think that it is not going to happen. haha lets just hope that she will not read my blog or she will miss this part somehow.

    so we were in library. there was nothing interesting there (although it is important to note that it is always fun to have me around, so it wasn't very boring) except for this guy who always bug her went to the library as well and it was quite funny when we tried to entertain him. we were evil!

    after that, i was expecting to go home, but then she said that she wanted to watch movie. and so, we went to town for a movie, the wedding date. it was so sudden! one moment we were in library and the next moment we went to watch a movie. haha and she bought pop corn and drinks to share with me so thanks so much to her (i was broke at that moment)! the show is pretty okay but she finds it gross because of some scenes of partial nudity and people making out. haha! anyway the cinema was huge and the ambience is cool, but the screenie sucks. but sometimes it is not what and where you watch a movie, it is who you watch it with .

    after that we went for a walk in the complex (i still have no idea what complex was that) and we again did stupid stuff. first, she brought me to the women lingerie section to go look for g-strings (if i have sufficient evidence that you are laughing, you will be raped by gay donkeys tonight) but since i was wearing my school uniform, i think it would be better if i don't do that.. so i walked away :-p and then we went to kids section and looked for toys. and guess what, i saw my favourite childhood toy, LEGO!!! i can't believe that i still find lego interesting when i checked them out yesterday. they are all so different now, and it reminds me of my childhood a lot. tsk... nostalgic! i will seriously buy a set of lego if i can afford them... haha some things just don't change! there is still a child in me!

    and then after that we went home. i was so happy yesterday! i think it's mainly because i went out with ailin and had so much fun. and now i must go and study because i lost all the time, but of course it is worth it! anyway i will cover on my common test result once i got back everything, but so far result is okay but grades are bad. very saddening but comforting at the same time.

    enough of rambling. that was pretty long. 1st of april 2005: one of the happiest day in my life!

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